Shades of Grey (Friend-zone)

Grey

used to be one of my favorite colors

used to stand firmly between extremes

used to facilitate my decision making

and now

it only torments me

with how endless its spectrum seems

i’m a raindrop hanging on for dear life

clinging to a dark cloud’s silver lining

keeping me from falling as hard

as bombs when they soaked hiroshima

My passion’s held back by the lack of

a target willing to be smitten by the

unadulterated truth wrapped in emotion

But i can’t blame you for not wanting

To bite a bullet that you can dodge

I can’t hold you accountable 

When it comes to the investment i’ve made

I know that if I bet wrong, and it all crashes

a great depression is all i’m owed afterwards.

I used to love grey.

how neutral seemed to suit me as if

tailor fit for the way i saw the world

yet i never expected to become its prey

never thought i’d desire darkness 

if it meant i was unfit for the light of day

never wanted to feel like i’m

less than the ideal but more than a reject

because the middle can still be passed over.

i don’t want to be over you.

i don’t view you as an obstacle to be conquered

I don’t see this as a bridge to walk across

But i refuse to offer a river of tears

flowing from the ocean that is my heart.

Especially when friendship is bittersweet

But palatable enough to swallow with my pride

I won’t cry over a wound before it’s arrived

Maybe i’m just embracing feelings for a love

Discovered long before its appointed time.

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eltigrechico:

redsuspenders:

The Last Samurai starring Tom Cruise

The Last of the Mohicans starring Daniel Day-Lewis

The Mexican starring Brad Pitt

Prince of Persia starring Jake Gyllenhaal

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Only be with someone who you think you can learn from. They should be smarter than you in certain ways so that you can continue to grow and be interested. Above all, you should undoubtedly be proud that you are with them.

something my 10th grade history teacher told me about how he knew he wanted to marry his wife (via modernmethadone)
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