used to be one of my favorite colors
used to stand firmly between extremes
used to facilitate my decision making
it only torments me
with how endless its spectrum seems
i’m a raindrop hanging on for dear life
clinging to a dark cloud’s silver lining
keeping me from falling as hard
as bombs when they soaked hiroshima
My passion’s held back by the lack of
a target willing to be smitten by the
unadulterated truth wrapped in emotion
But i can’t blame you for not wanting
To bite a bullet that you can dodge
I can’t hold you accountable
When it comes to the investment i’ve made
I know that if I bet wrong, and it all crashes
a great depression is all i’m owed afterwards.
I used to love grey.
how neutral seemed to suit me as if
tailor fit for the way i saw the world
yet i never expected to become its prey
never thought i’d desire darkness
if it meant i was unfit for the light of day
never wanted to feel like i’m
less than the ideal but more than a reject
because the middle can still be passed over.
i don’t want to be over you.
i don’t view you as an obstacle to be conquered
I don’t see this as a bridge to walk across
But i refuse to offer a river of tears
flowing from the ocean that is my heart.
Especially when friendship is bittersweet
But palatable enough to swallow with my pride
I won’t cry over a wound before it’s arrived
Maybe i’m just embracing feelings for a love
Discovered long before its appointed time.
Only be with someone who you think you can learn from. They should be smarter than you in certain ways so that you can continue to grow and be interested. Above all, you should undoubtedly be proud that you are with them.something my 10th grade history teacher told me about how he knew he wanted to marry his wife (via modernmethadone)