118th & Nowhere

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I’m 21 years old.

But in two decades I’ve only learned one constant

When it comes to what keeps me goin at rough moments

This truth I’ve learned about myself is that

No matter how dark it gets overhead, I still find that

silver lined patch in the storm cover and embrace that 

solitary ray of sunlight even if it means standing in the rain

getting soaked in a downpour of my own tears and struck by the

proverbial lightning bolts fury of my own harsh realities.

Speaking simply: I’m a dreamer and this condition is hopeless.

I thrive off of the potential, live in the hypothetical until it becomes

actual.

The issue here is that, in a multiverse of sorts, inhabited by myself

divided amongst every memory and multiplied by my lifetime as an exponent

I’ve found it almost more comfortable and appealing to reside

In the land that never was in the space around my own heart

with multiple copies and shadows of former lives as my neighbors

While I sit here and ponder what has it all meant?

What has it all been worth? What seed of happiness did I let slip away

rather than force under-earth to take root and grow into fruition?

The fact of the matter is: I’m in love with aspects of my past and thus

cheating my future out of a fullness of experience with who i am presently

and thus I have this dilemma.

Do I sacrifice everything I ever was to any and everyone in my past

Just to be someone completely new, unknown and enigmatic?

Or do I continue this endless search for the one staple that’s been 

behind the curtains, holding the stage and players in their roles

through every act, song and dance in this musical I call my life?

I’ve got responsibilities at the moment so I must abandon this musing

To return to the game I’m playing with fate and currently losing. 

jstforkicks:

You do realize there are men on here too ? Not just ladies ? But who knows…maybe you’re posting it for the guys -.- stop that shit now ! 

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She wowed everyone with her brilliant voice on Britain’s got talent.

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Just watched the video…not impressed.

First offense: The lack of Andre 3000 in the video. J. Cole was a decent substitute but as much as I rock with Cole World, i can’t say he was the better choice.

Second offense: too much goin on…looked like a horrid cross-up of House Party and Hustle and Flow with all the ratchet outfits that some of y’all may consider fashionable.

Third offense: Did I already mention no Andre 3-stacks? Ok then I guess the next issue I had was the fact that this video was CLEARLY recorded before her pregnancy, as the baby bump was NOWHERE to be found in this video. Why is this an issue? For a track like this, you should have released it LONG before the announcement of a baby, for two reasons.

1: It’s more of a summer jam than it is any kind of fall hit single. It wouldve done ALOT better being released around the time it was shot.

2: The rumors against the Jay-Z/Beyonce camp are at their highest, and releasing a vid absent of her being pregnant amidst rumors that its all a publicity stunt isnt exactly helping the case. I mean, yeah you’d have to be dumb NOT to believe she’s pregnant after the big reveal…

Then again, since when have those who read tabloids been considered intelligent or elect?

This phrase has become one of my staple slogans as of recently, due to some unfortunate events involving friend groups and friend choices.

I’ve come to learn that 9 times out of 10, whenever I get close to considering certain people as family they do 1 of two things.

They either make me happy I chose them through some act of kindness or word of wisdom or something that proves how friendly they are.

Or

They make me sorry I ever involved myself with them. 

I’ve had a lot of this in a lifetime, as do most people, because people are fragile and fickle creatures. 

But I’ve discovered that some of my closest friends at this moment are people who have come from the craziest circumstances into my life or are just people who value the idea of true friendship above numbers or image.

Still sounding cryptic? Well it’s hard to explain without bringing names into it, but the point here is that I’m learning the truths about keeping my real friends close and dismissing my enemies. Keeping them close has made too many problems for me. I’m done keeping trouble in my back pocket. 

Time to keep all drama at a rifle’s length.

devils-grass:

Clearly the Assassins Order does exist.

vittoria agli assassini!

icavein:

I need some fellow republic people to play with. Smuggler ftw.

Sith Assassin